(NOTE: This song doesn’t really have anything to do with this blog post, I just think it would be a nice backdrop to read to. And also I just really really like this song ;))
I have been home for less than a month and its just been so crazy. One issue after another just keep popping up, and I have been swatting away at them like ping pong balls. I have a feeling they wont go away either. But, alas, I am good with it. I am glad I have taken this hiatus for awhile just to think, heal and work on things that need to be done. I don’t believe God will let me go on to the next step without fixing my foundation first. It has been some hard, hard, hard lessons that God has given me to help improve. Sometimes it hurts, stings, makes me cry, and makes my heart oh-so sore… Ouch! But in the end I know when I work on myself like this, and face hard truths, it causes me to be a better, more emotionally fit person. So right now it really freaking sucks, but it will be worth it. Hopefully I will find the solutions to move on and be worthy enough for my next, higher level in life. New level, new devil they say. This is all training to be strong enough to deal with harder problems that may come in the future. Ugh, indeed.
Through all this, I am still excited for life. I am excited for my future possibilities and for the dreams I haven’t even dreamt yet. I am hopeful for; and declare an abundant and fulfilling life that captures the essence of who I am. I expect that one day life will reveal a time where I will have to be courageous, and do out-of-the-box things, in order to have outrageously good results. I don’t think it will be easy at all, there will be opposition and tough times (Obviously, but I have to remind myself of this or else I will forget and breakdown when it happens). But I have to Trust that God will help me through it, and that there is a reason for everything. And as much as I love lounging around, I just need to do the work (Work Work Work Work Workin’ on my ish like Iggy Azalea says lol). Mustn’t forget that work sows and waters the seeds and accelerates results. Time to clock in, tune all the negativity out, and keep moving forward.